Saturday, November 6, 2010

when life overturns



hey there. Haha. I really don't know where to start but i'll try... :P

Life. It is the process that counts. Not just merely about reaching the goal.
It wouldn't add anything if you fuss about your life being not productive as others etc or vice versa.

Clearly. I see a better picture after this huge overturn.

It all boils down. To one matter - Love.

It could be so unreasonable, things might not turn out the way you want to.
If i could have wisdom, if i could speak in tongues of men and of angels, if i could have gift of prophecy, if i could have faith that can move mountains, if i can give all that i posess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames....
but have not love, i am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal, i am nothing, i gain nothing.
how true is the word of God. Piercing right through the flesh dividing the body, spirit and soul.

O Lord, you have searched me and you know me. You know when i sit and when i rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar. You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways. Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely O Lord. You hem me in - behind and before; you have laid your hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain. Where can i go from your Spirit? Where can i flee from your presence? If i go up to the heavens, you are there; if i make my bed in the depths, you are there. If i rise on the wings of the dawn, if i settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will hold me fast. If i say, "Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me," even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you. For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful. i know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when i was made in the secret place. When i was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand. When i awake, I am still with you. If only you would slay the wicked, O God! Away from me, you bloodthirsty men! They speak of you with evil intent; your adversaries misuse your name. Do I not hate those who hate you, O Lord, and abhor those who rise up against you? I have nothing but hatred for them; I count them my enemies. Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting. Psalm139.

Never do i dare claim, i know it all. =)

Create in me a clean heart, O God. And renew a right spirit within me.
Cast me not away from thy presence O God.
And take not thy Holy Spirit from me.
Restore unto me, the joy of thy salvation.
And renew a right spirit within me.

Dear God, I am a sinner. And i need your cleansing everyday. Please Renew me once again.

Purify my heart O Lord, that i may be right before you.

To you, God. I surrender.




At the cross i bow my knees...


loving you, My God forever,
-joyce-

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